Been a long ass week. Lost my bus pass along with an AA attendance sheet. Definitely times to accept loss and move on. Currently on my way to make up meetings. Some days it completely kills me to have to take the bus. I miss the freedom of driving. Leaving when I want. Going wherever I want. In due time I'll have it back. In due time I'll have all my freedoms back.
If nothing, probation has finally helped me learn to appreciate what I have. I do always want more, I love my instant gratification, but I gave that all up on my own accord. Stupid decisions led me to where I am, and will help make better ones in the future.
Moods flip and flop though. I'll feel wave of emotions that never materialize. I'll feel like crying, yet no tears come. I either smile or am angry. The anger has unfortunately been getting a hold lately which I need to work on. Stress just breaks me down and drags out time.
I live on the silver lining.
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